My dream, my break-up, my life....

First my dream. I am sure no one on the planet has dreams as strange as mine. Last night I dreamt about a cluster of crap that means nothing. First I find out my husband is cheating on me with Mandy who used to date Justin my brother-in law. I break up with my husband who apparently was just my boyfriend at the time. I go to hang out with some friends and then my husband shows up and well now he is Johnny my freakin ex from how many years ago? Forever. He wants to take me to a movie, I decline and decide to go across the street to take a shower at Travis Terry's house. Random I know. I have not seen or heard about Travis Terry in at least 8 yrs. Anyway before I shower he knocks on the door I grab a towel and decide to go home and he gave me some gummy bears. I get home and I am all of a sudden fully clothed. I go to my room and Mandy is now Malissa also another ex of Justin's. We talk and hug and make up. I go outside to sit on the truck and Laura, Kristi, and Karry are there. We are talking listening to James Blunt and Kristi decides to walk to my mailbox. Karry joins her and proceeds to pull out the worlds biggest weeds from my yard. Then I woke up. I should go to a dream analyst. I wonder if they would even be able to make sense of this crap. I do know that every time I have a dream that is something that could really happen. Like no one changing into anyone else if I dream it three times it comes true. Then I will be sitting around having this deja vu remembering my dream. Weird.

The break-up

I am numb. My break-up was disheartening. I tired to find just the right words. I decided with I am just bored with you. You have been my companion since 2005. We have had our ups and downs. You froze and crashed a few times. Sometimes you were so evil and caused me so much grief. Drama always followed us. It was because of you I had stalker after stalker. It was time to separate that part of my life and we just outgrew each other. I took all my pictures back. You betrayed me time after time. We shared so many friends new and old. You reconnected me with some many people and forever that I will be forever grateful. I reminisced to some songs about the good times. We hugged and shared a few I will never forget you. I fumbled with the delete key several times. It took me about 10 minutes to gather the courage to press 'cancel my account'. I will miss you Myspace, but its for the best. My heart will indeed go on. ::tear::

There is nothing new in my life at all. My life is boring, boring, boring. I am content.

Hello people

So I cannot wait to finally delete my Myspace, but there are a few things I have to do before I press delete and eliminate a portion of my life. I feel like I owe Myspace a explination its like we are breaking up. Breaking up is so hard to do. I need to gather my stuff, meaning my pictures. I just need a clean break, nothing personal.

I love to Twitter. It is fast, easy, and interesting.

So there are like a handful of people at my work that are on Prozac and other stress medication. I may sound a bit bitchy but since when do I care? Anyway since when has stress been medication worthy? It is stress! You live with it day in and day out and some days are worse than others but as an adult you learn stress managment. You learn to let things go and to eliminate the things that make you so-called "stressed". For instance one girl is on meds because her kids stress her out. Well you idiot for one they are kids. It was your choice to have them and stress and kids go hand in hand. Deal with it. Its called mommy time out. You have a husband and three kids. Tell your husband to watch them for 2 hrs and do something for you. It is not rocket science. One girl was so stressed she got FMLA. Again seriously? I just cannot fathom any of it. I work full time, go to school, take care of 2 kids, a house, bills, and have a husband in Iraq. If anyone should overly stressed its me, but I am not. I have my days when it gets to me but I know my limits and I know when to give myself a time out and just relax. Yes it is few and far between but I am certainly not willing to become the next Britney Spears and shave my head. It is just not happening. That was my argument for the day.

So I got this book called the Love Dare and I also got the Couples devotional Bible. It seems promising and they are both easy readers. My old Bible is just too hard to comprehend. I do not like all the thou, art, and thee. It is too hard to follow. The Love Dare is going to be hard, heck its already proved to be difficult. I failed the first day. It is ok I am fully going to do it today and the day after and so on.

I have a 4.0 this semester so far....go me. Ok I think I am finished talking for now.